Been like ages since i've updated my vandalism board..hahas...
lets just start of when before i departs from my homeland?...kinda missing the singaporean lifestyle when the first time i depart...never been so long away from home..o.O..longest i ever never been from home is like 3 weeks?..lols...this is like 2, 3, 4 times much more...shall not elaborate further...ha
travelled around...started to learn abit of different culture practiced....kinda different from what i've imagined all along...other then the food which is 1.5x bigger den what is in of sg lol..
aiya, sua la...too much happenings liao...lazy to type it all out LOL!....i right now also prays that i will not spend all my $ there -.-"...lidat everytime i see my acc balance, i won't be so emo..LOL!...
alright...that is all for the updates~~~~....
till now still counting down the days before arrival...=/....

1 year anniversary!!!!...4 more years to go =(.....
hmmm....tml comex bah...see those electronic stuff..haha...
aiya most suay is..i lose my ipod -..-"...dono which fag go and took it or mayb i lost it...i dono..den i juz fuck it..bought a new one -.-"...but cheaper..16gb for $238 plus free cover and charger and ipod shop de member..nt bad..
nt sure if i'm able to clear my FFI...tons of things for me to clear..problematic body i shall say..=/...
gotta numb myself with events and events..what for think of the unwanted things anymore..NUMB NUMB!...

since u had alrdy said ur part, i guess its my turn to sae my part...

yes...i reply u late, i tk days to reply u...bt i hope that u cn consider my working environment...is not as if i cn eng eng go to the outside to msg....
for the issus of 3.18am to 4am incident..i really do not know...im dam shag alrdy...do u know for the past 1 wk...is not as if im taking a holiday toil...im wrking...24/7 for e case...yes..i cn slp...bt for hw long ?...1wk....i nv realli had a gd slp...im like a living zombie...why cnt u juz understand my working situation...?...im not 8-5..nor i'm a superman...im human....in this normal circumstances..human will shag..to the max..
on the 27082009..u msg me..i nv reply..coz no reception..i tk it as it is purely my fault..i nv inform beforehand....sorry..
e other things i needo voice out is...u sae even u sae it out.. no1 would cares...but the thing is..u nv even voice out ur probs to me at all...yet u juz claim that no1 would care for you...i guess this is an very bad assumptions...
last thing not to forget, i broke promises...?...yes i broke...bt didnt u did too?....we agreed to meet up..bt u cn forget.....did u even know that just an simple meet up under ur block..i will also go?...even a simple meet up..i also treat it a very important event?...tt time..i try everything..juz to mk tt day available to meet up with you...bt as usual...things crops up for you...left me disappointed...

these are all the things i wish to bring up...im nt saeing i nt happy..im just....disappointed and stress out...that is all...

long time never post my blog liao...haaaaaa
yesterday went with my usual "gang" to cine watching movie and eating...
1st thing 1st..i totally hate tt movie =/...and tt movie is call " The District 9"...damn..before i watch..my subway was in my stomach...during the mid of the show..realise its alrdy near my throat ._."...nearly wanna "release" liao..lol..


tml shall cont my usual day..once again...never change -.-"""

a very meaningful song,found it in the transformer soundtrack..lol...

Theory Of A Deadman

- Not Meant to be -

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to ya
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad
And I, can't change your mind, oh

It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward,
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad,
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see,
Maybe we're not meant to be

here to post on my dusty blog..
got posted out yesterday afternoon, feeling was nice, haha...Provided as i did well to my own expectations during theory exam yesterday morning. Had so many things to pack, shoes, clothing, so on ...but at least it marks the end of multiplies rollcall and morning exercise which i too lazy to do it..haha =/
got my posting ler, and there's a trip awaiting..a long deployment..

I don't how to express my feelings to you anymore...yea, maybe you are right, we are drifting apart, i might not be the same me anymore ( i do not know ).
Was just yesterday, other people told me that i'm too into being perfectionist, always wanna win in everything, be better then others.
Realise everything i had here had cause me to be blinded from other a much more important things.

I been thinking, yes, you are right, i don't think i ever care about your feeling when i spoke or rather should i say, i always predicted your feeling and expect you to be feeling of what i had predicted.
Guess i'm a total failure, i'm too into myself, centralizing myself more then caring the peoples around me.

Lastly, i had this wish, maybe to be able to meet you before i ever go to my deployment. The duration is too long that i myself isn't confident that i'm still myself to you when i returns.



Right now, right this moment, i just hope for a miracle.

alrite..been ages before i post..haha..
first off..like to gratz myself to pass ippt and gt promoted..oyea...3sg...waiting for this rank for 9mths liao...(having this rank means more $..HAHA)
den followed by things happening ard me which i do not like to mention..no point..lols...same old things anyway..
watch drag me to hell last wk..show is ok..juz that too much "special" effects..too fake in the end..spoilt the whole show overall..
Gotta catch transformer 2...woohooo..wanted to watch that show until my neck bcome long liao =/
lastly..in camp here...signing off...(don't know what to post liao) and bz doing some relinks