here to post on my dusty blog..
got posted out yesterday afternoon, feeling was nice, haha...Provided as i did well to my own expectations during theory exam yesterday morning. Had so many things to pack, shoes, clothing, so on ...but at least it marks the end of multiplies rollcall and morning exercise which i too lazy to do it..haha =/
got my posting ler, and there's a trip awaiting..a long deployment..

I don't how to express my feelings to you anymore...yea, maybe you are right, we are drifting apart, i might not be the same me anymore ( i do not know ).
Was just yesterday, other people told me that i'm too into being perfectionist, always wanna win in everything, be better then others.
Realise everything i had here had cause me to be blinded from other a much more important things.

I been thinking, yes, you are right, i don't think i ever care about your feeling when i spoke or rather should i say, i always predicted your feeling and expect you to be feeling of what i had predicted.
Guess i'm a total failure, i'm too into myself, centralizing myself more then caring the peoples around me.

Lastly, i had this wish, maybe to be able to meet you before i ever go to my deployment. The duration is too long that i myself isn't confident that i'm still myself to you when i returns.



Right now, right this moment, i just hope for a miracle.