a very meaningful song,found it in the transformer soundtrack..lol...

Theory Of A Deadman

- Not Meant to be -

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to ya
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad
And I, can't change your mind, oh

It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward,
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad,
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see,
Maybe we're not meant to be

here to post on my dusty blog..
got posted out yesterday afternoon, feeling was nice, haha...Provided as i did well to my own expectations during theory exam yesterday morning. Had so many things to pack, shoes, clothing, so on ...but at least it marks the end of multiplies rollcall and morning exercise which i too lazy to do it..haha =/
got my posting ler, and there's a trip awaiting..a long deployment..

I don't how to express my feelings to you anymore...yea, maybe you are right, we are drifting apart, i might not be the same me anymore ( i do not know ).
Was just yesterday, other people told me that i'm too into being perfectionist, always wanna win in everything, be better then others.
Realise everything i had here had cause me to be blinded from other a much more important things.

I been thinking, yes, you are right, i don't think i ever care about your feeling when i spoke or rather should i say, i always predicted your feeling and expect you to be feeling of what i had predicted.
Guess i'm a total failure, i'm too into myself, centralizing myself more then caring the peoples around me.

Lastly, i had this wish, maybe to be able to meet you before i ever go to my deployment. The duration is too long that i myself isn't confident that i'm still myself to you when i returns.



Right now, right this moment, i just hope for a miracle.